Never cared much about Malay songs. But since you dedicate this to me, so I try to listen to it. Soooooooooooo nice and lovely. So, this is Dealova that is sooo hangat a while back...is it during Mawi & Ina case, or Siti's wedding? Watever.

Love it...and love you too.

Don't worry...I'll be here for you. Forever is a long word, I'll try to be with you as long as there is a breath in my lungs. Inclusive of whenever the doctor put in artificial respiration apparatus to my body.


Once - Dealova.
Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
Karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
Oh karena hati tlah letih

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
Aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
Oh bayangmu seakan-akan

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
Yang memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada
Hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang
Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang




Now, dah gila lagu nih. Kah kah kah. Me always a step behind dalam lagu Melayu.


 
¶ 3:44 PM
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I’m a fan of The Lord of the Rings; the books and the movies. The movies are perfect adaptation from the books. Yes, there are some changes, but that is why it is called ADAPTATION. Surely you cannot expect all the nitty gritty scenes to be added in the movies. Tho, Tom Bombadil is a great character to be shown.

Cannot get enuf of them, even now. Anyway, the songs are great. May It Be had been posted last few years. Now I would post Into the West; and the song that had me crying in the movie, the Pippin’s song.

A sad song. In the movie, the father(Steward of Gondor) did not even acknowledge that Faramir had done the best in the circumstances. Faramir is a character that I can feel with, trying his best to redeem himself in his father’s eyes, even tho he had done no wrong. But to no avail. Not even a kind word is said to the poor guy. Heartbroken, but courageous….a guy that is like a tempered sword. People will pound him, and he will change…to the better. And in the end, he will be above common humans. My kind of hero….

Annie Lennox - Into the West
Lay down
Your sweet and weary head
Night is falling
You’ve come to journey's end
Sleep now
And dream of the ones who came before
They are calling
From across the distant shore

Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see
All of your fears will pass away
Safe in my arms
You're only sleeping

[Chorus]
What can you see
On the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea
A pale moon rises
The ships have come to carry you home

And all will turn
To silver glass
A light on the water
All souls pass
Hope fades
Into the world of night
Through shadows falling
Out of memory and time

Don't say: «We have come now to the end»
White shores are calling
You and I will meet again And you'll be here in my arms
Just sleeping

[Chorus]
And all will turn
To silver glass
A light on the water
Grey ships pass
Into the West

Steward of Gondor by Billy Boyd
Home is behind
The world ahead.
And there are many paths to tread.
Through shadow,
To the edge of night
Until the stars are all alight

Mist and shadow
Cloud and shade
All shall fade
All shall...fade.

 
¶ 9:30 AM
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Nothing much. Buat keja, main with my beads...Oh, and do the 2007 catalog. Add in a new component, Handphone Holder. Later, i would add in the catalog in chic-lady, so that you guys can download. In zip file tho, too big lah.


Am reading : ORN by Piers Anthony. Tengah mencarik OX pulak. Then, cukup the trilogy. Muahahaha.

In my head, 2 songs. Vincent by Don McLean and Heaven Knows by Rick Price. Those are my old favorites. Love Vincent's Starry Night and Sunflowers painting. Dulu, ada kedai lukisan kat KL Sentral nih, got Vincent's reproductions...asik kena tarik ngan my frens ajer. Setiap kali lalu, mesti berenti nak tengok.

He's crazy....to show his true love, he cut his own ear and send to the love of his life. But, he painted such beautiful pictures. Sadly, during his life, no one appreciated his paintings. He is despressed and unloved. As a last resort, he killed himself.

However, I think, that is one of the charms of his paintings. There are such stories and emotions behind every painting. His paintings makes me want to touch the canvas, to explore the emotions that he feels during the painting. I truly believed that for him, he paints with his soul. Baring everything, for the world to see. And the ignorant world, never did understand him





Don McLean - Vincent
Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps, they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps, they'll listen now
For they could not love you
And still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
on that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you, Vincent
This world was never meant
for one as beautiful as you

Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty hall
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged man in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
Then how you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they're not listening still
Perhaps, they never will..





Rick Price - Heaven Knows
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake till
I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's far away
It just keeps getting stronger
everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
Cause it breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
Cause it breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide away or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why it does hurt me so

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows
Heaven knows.....2x 
¶ 4:48 PM
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Had an utterly exhausting but lovely weekend.

Saturday - went shopping for Swarovski Bicone 0.4 cm. Found a small mechanical doll of a glow in the dark T-Rex bones. Very cute and cost only RM2. Play with it while waiting for the PalmX meeting. Fooled a few guys into thinking that I'm early 20s. Hehehe. Attend the meeting, never once did I show anyone my nearly extinct Sony T615C. Got scammed by my fren, lovely surprise tho. Then, have a dinner with frenz at Jalan Semarak Satay, quite good satay. In my mind, quite as good as sate Kajang. Only the chillies for the sauce is a bit under cooked. Then afterwards, go and see the Pan's Labyrinth.

Sunday - meet with a fren for a personal session of gym. Our version of it lah. Very tiring. Then, jalan-jalan with a fren, showing off his latest acquisition. Petang, balek dah exhausted gler...Tido and kemas umah ajer semalam.


Pan's Labyrinth review.
A fairytale that is not suitable for kids. Got quite a lot of grisly and bloody scenes. Very dark and quite scary. I had a few moments looking down at my hands and closing my eyes.

The story revolves around Ophelia, who moves into an army camp since her new stepfather wants the new baby to be born with the father. The father, a fascist army Captain is very strict and Ophelia dislike the guy. Afterward, a stick insect transfigures to a fairy and led Ophelia to a Faun which explains that she was actually Princess Moanna, an underground princess which had died after going to the surface. She have to do 3 tasks to confirm that she was indeed Princess Moanna and can be reunited with her family, the King and Queen of Underground. Want to know the ending? Go and see for yourself lah. You can see the movie at GSC One Utama and MidValley. It is a Spanish film but it does have 3 subtitles in Mandarin, BM and BI.

The story itself is very engaging, the makeup and CGI are superb. No wonder they won the awards at Oscar.

The verdict? I would personally give 8 1/2 stars out of 10. Very high score for people that knows me.


Am reading - the same book. Yeah, the writing is quite small.

Am listening - Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. Utterly love the song. One of my fav, even tho the movie is not very inspired (to me lah). There is totally no chemistry between the hero and Meg Ryan.

http://www.ifilm.com/video/2787376



And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Verse 2

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Verse 3

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am  
¶ 8:39 AM
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Am starting to make fashion jewellery again. My hand had healed...I hope. A few orders yet to deliver. This weekend plak full. Sorry. Will do ASAP.

In a bit of a rage. Orang lain tabur janji manis, aku yang kena tempelak. My dear, what goes around, comes all the way back around. Jangan tabur janji kalau memang tak leh nak tepati. Remember what had happened to you. The pain and the despair..... Anyway, since you want to go on playing with people's heart, I really wish you luck. As for me, I'm the spectator...the trilobytes that eternal in stone. Sometimes, this trilobyte laugh sampai tergolek biji mata tengok cerita pentas dunia. Tak yah tengok Astro Wah Lai Toi.

As for my own life, tragedy after tragedy. Kalah William Shakespeare stories. Whom I love, only a person knows. And he also knows that we cannot be together. What I am, would destroy his family....what I am not, is already a history. (sudah, jangan speculate tak tentu hala)


As I said, this blog is a rambling of a mad woman.



A really mad woman.



Really, really mad woman.



Really, really, really mad woman, but also a beautiful woman.



Am reading : Still the same book.
Am listening : Krik....krik....krik......bunyi cengkerik. 
¶ 10:27 AM
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Done already, the evil deed. Now scared to hell whether I made the right decision. I do so love him.

Lotsa memories while we are together. The sweet and the sour, the lover's quarrel and the fight for freedom(??&&!?). Lama wooo....since 1999.

Now, I would leave him.

Hmm...rasa di hati, cam nak patah balek. But, be strong!! Rina, be strong!!



Plus, K Mawar would kick me to hell kalau aku patah balek. 
¶ 5:12 PM
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Came back to KL last nite. Nothing much. Helped my mum kemaskan barang, Hanim would be going back to Penang hopefully sometime in June. A lot of books (educationwise such as SRP, PMR, STPM) were unearthed and going to be sold. A load of old t-shirts and old pants. Sayang, tapi dah tak leh pakai, nak buat camna. Nak simpan, makan tempat....nak buang, sayang. Buang jerlah.

Sempat gaks reduce the circumference of my new bracelet. So now, am crazy wearing it where ever I go.

Some people asked me, who gave me the bracelet? Sorry lah, P&C. I do not like to advertise my relationship to the world. Lagi pun, the whole idea of putting this on the blogspot is to inform that now, I got a new Tiffany bracelet. Later, it would be another bracelet...or is it going to be earrings and necklace? Who knows? Btw, if you want to get hold of the item for yourself...contact me. :D

Would be a bit busy this week, need to run around. Clients suddenly got issues at their site. As usual, these things would crop up during my holiday. And as usual, after holiday, I need to do rounds to check on the sites. This is my life, thank God I love it.

Still thinking of leaving him....or should I call it her? Since people usually referring to troublemaker as female. Now, are you confused? Not me.


Am listening, to the lagu si Noh Iskandar. Aku pun start suka lagu tuh, even tho the album only sold around 120,000 units worldwide...some of the songs are very catchy. Plus the lady are so catty. Miauuww.

Another one, Michael Buble - Spiderman. Jazz rendition of the comic theme song of the midnight crawler. Dang hot. What can I say, except this guy is a perfect package?





Am reading, Dispossed by Ursula K. Le Guin. 
¶ 8:56 AM
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Yey!! My Valentine's bracelet is here!!

Very nice, very heavy and very Tiffany. A triffle big for my self (due to the design that I choose), but.....what the heck.

A gift from my significant other. Thanx a lot. I promise to treasure it always. ;)

Here is the pix of the beaaauuuutifuuullll bracelet.





So today, my main agenda is to belek my tangan.





Jap....






Yep, the bracelet is still there.


Nanti buleh pakai ngan my Lord of the Ring.......ring. Muah ha ha ha. 
¶ 11:17 AM
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Banyak menda nak kena pikir.

1) In dilemma, nak tinggalkan sayang. Dah lama sangat ngan dia. Semua kerenah dia aku tau....But, I need to think of myself too. TADATADA...(cliff hanger)


2) To my setan sister, wanna ur tikus? Better set arrangement to bring the tikus with you. If not......and dear, this is not an idle threat. You have until end of the month to make ur decision. I am already fed up with ur lack of responsibilities. Grow the f*&% up !!


3) Ada plak yang tetiba nak putuskan persahabatan. Apara. Aku tak usik, tak kacau apa pun. Tetiba tanak cakap, tanak mesej. Pasal apa pun tak tau. Kalau berani, cakap lah terus terang ngan aku. Jangan jadi macam budak-budak tak cukup umur, awak tuh dah tua...grow up !!


Moody skets. Life sucks....but it does go on. Btw, Que Sera Sera.



To Noh Iskandar, the cutest boy.

http://www.ifilm.com/video/2794962



Paris Hilton Nothing In This World

Da-da,
Da-da, Da-da, Da,
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da

So I was thinking to myself when you passed me by
“Here’s what I like”
And you were with somebody else but you can’t deny
That’s me in your eye

Do you know
What it’s like
When it’s wrong
But it feels so right?

[Chorus]
Nothing in this world can stop us tonight
I can do what she can do so much better
Nothing in this world can turn out the light
I’m gonna make you feel alright tonight.
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight

Baby, you and I, we got what will never be
You know I’m right
So tell me what you’re waiting for when you’re here with me?
Most guys would die

You should know
What it’s like
When it hurts
‘Cause it feels so right

[Chorus]
Nothing in this world can stop us tonight
I can do what she can do so much better
Nothing in this world can turn out the light
I’m gonna make you feel alright tonight.
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight

I gotta tell you somethin’
It’s somethin’ that you just might like
No, it’s not the same thing
Yeah, you’ll learn I’m not too shy
You and I, we can do this thing tonight

[Chorus]
Nothing in this world can stop us tonight
I can do what she can do so much better
Nothing in this world can turn out the light
I’m gonna make you feel alright tonight.
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight

[Chorus]
Nothing in this world can stop us tonight
I can do what she can do so much better
Nothing in this world can turn out the light
I’m gonna make you feel alright tonight.
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight



Kecik-kecik dah pandai tengok pompuan lawa. Habis lah lepas nih, kak Mawar and abang Man kena letak pagar berduri keliling umah laaaa...Kang ur only son kena mobbed by anak2 dara. hehehehe.



Am finishing : The Ship of Ishtar by A. Merritt.
Going to read : Spoiled for choice. Tak sure lagi.
Am listening to : laaa...lagu kat atas laaa.



P/s: Nak balek kampung this kamis. Baaaleeeekkk kampunggggg...Yeyeyeye...Baaalleeekkk kampunnngggg. 
¶ 12:09 PM
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Do you ever wonder, who reads your blog?

The possibility of it being read by other people all over the world are very high, especially if you put it as 'public', a setting that is available in all blog hosting sites. Which is usually, the default setting.

But somehow, some people put their inner thoughts and secrets on the web.

Wonder why?

Apparently, these people thought that their blogs are secret and kind of like the in-trend diary. Dumb, huh? Not really. Because these people, are trying to reach out to people. Only their conscious self are shy enough, or don't want to take the responsibility of saying those things out loud...and thus, 'Eh, I only wrote it on my blogsite, how on earth u knew abt it?'.

Clever, eh?

Do not underestimate these people intelligences. In fact, always assume other people are much more smarter than you are. Then, you can find out some interesting things....which then, you can write down in your blog.


Anyway, I use my blog to express my feelings, to ramble about my experiences and as a tool of communication with my friends/family. As I tell a friend, my blog is a rambling of a mad woman. Don't understand? Then please kindly read all my previous ramblings.



In my head since last Thursday, Pink - Who knew.

http://www.ifilm.com/video/2794082





Reading : The ship of Ishtar by A. Merritt. 
¶ 10:13 AM
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Buat tender lagi. Tapi, kali nih rasa tak overnight lah kot. My part dah abis. Sajer jer lepaks teman bebudak opis.

Tapi, sat g before kul 10 kena balek aaa...kang ketapi tinggal...tak pasal2 menapak.


Lapar lah pulak, saper yang aku nak geget nih?

(scouting)

Pilihan pertama : Budak tak cukup isi, tulang aja......REJECT!
Pilihan kedua : Banyak isi, tapi asik batuk-batuk.....REJECT!
Pilihan ketiga : Tak halal.....REJECT!
Pilihan keempat : Banyak isi, tapi dia banyak anak.....Kesian lah plak....REJECT!
Pilihan kelima : Banyak lemak, tapi asik pegi gym aja sekarang nih...kena rebus lama skets laaa....Leh Lah Kot. Jap, nak pegi pasang microwave jap. 
¶ 8:32 PM
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Kat opis.....buat tender.....esok kena antar.....

Anyway, selepas tengok video clip What Goes Around dekat 100x dalam jangka masa 4 hari, aku dah fall in love ngan Justin Timberlake. Muka cynical gler masa nyanyi lagu tuh. Smug pun ada jugak. Muka "Padan muka ko sebab tinggalkan aku, skang lagik teruk. Kalo ko datang merangkak pun, aku tak mo dah".

Slalu dia nyanyi lagu, muka gatal jer. Kali nih lain skets. Mebe dah banyak kali sangat bercinta & frust kot.

Citer pasal bercinta nih, for me, it is better for me to show my love. Nanti bila nyawa dah sampai tekak, mmg tak sempat nak tunjuk dah. Kalau sempat bagitau pun dah nasib baik.

Kekadang orang ada juga cakap kat aku, jual la mahal skets. Kalau aku jual mahal, then tetiba eksiden, dah termengkelan tak sempat bagitau. Buat ape, ye tak? Bagi aku, better show them that u love them, daripada mati tak sempat bagitau aper2 pun.

So, for my mum, my sisters (the angel and the setan), my "ntah aper nak kata relationship" guy, my frens and my enemy (aku ada enemy ka?), even to complete strangers....to you all, I love you.

Under whatever circumstances that you fall into my life, be it thru direct or not, knows this...I love you.

Except if you come with the intent of hurting those people that I love, then I hate you.



You know which category you are ....George Bush. 
¶ 11:16 AM
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Tgh proses membuat tender. Biasak lah, awal tahun. Dah penings sekor-sekor, bila nak discuss, kena tukar mindset dari satu tender ke satu tender. Hahaha, aku siap tersilap dateline, vendor aku dengar cam nak nangis jer. Sori aaaaaaaaa.

Hopefully, dapat lah a few projects this year. Kalau cakap nak menang semua, cam tak logic jer. Integrator and IT companies punya lah berlambak skang nih.


Aku just imagine, if something happens and suddenly, semua appliance yang menggunakan elektrik tetiba mati....camna agaknyer? Aku dengar, nuklear bom yang meletup beberapa batu di atas ruang angkasa dunia dapat melakukannya. Hmm...interesting.

All the computers and servers suddenly stop operating, DR sites hanya menjadi tunggul sahaja. Adakah manusia akan kembali ke Zaman Batu atau Zaman Tembaga? Aku rasa Zaman Batu, sebab sekarang kita melebur besi pun pakai mesin.

Sebab kebanyakan orang duduk di kota batu, mesti gelap dan rasa terancam. Nak makan apa ya? Orang dulu bolehlah hunting dan menanam. Kita asik menanam simen dan concrete...so makan batu?

Kalau orang macam aku yang tak suka gelap, nak buat camna? Mesti banyak kota-kota akan terbakar, hanya untuk memberikan haba (di kawasan sejuk) dan cahaya (di semua kawasan di muka bumi).

Hopefully, semua ini hanya igauan aku yang terlalu tinggi kuasa imaginasi. Janganlah menjadi kenyataan. Buat masa ini, aku hanya mampu cuba menanam taugeh dan mold di flat aku.



Sorry, tengah gila Youtube. Baru jumpa this excellent thingamajig that enables me to view videos. Actually now, I just use it to listen to the latest songs (Since my network admin ngan kejamnya close all the ports for P2P). >:)

Tgh gila dengar GLAMOROUS by Fergie.





Also love this song and video, Pink - U + Ur Hand :





Am reading : The Ship of Ishtar by A. Merritt.


P/s: Aku rasa nak beli oven and dvd player. Why? Oven, sebab aku teringin nak masak ala-ala Jamie Oliver. Simple tapi nampak sedap. Cuma tengah confuse nak beli jenis conventional or convection. Dvd pulak, sebab adik aku bawak balek banyak DVD anime. Nak tengok!! 
¶ 9:46 AM
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