Monday, December 23, 2013
Lately, there are many people that are expressing their doubts about doctors and hospitals. They claim that giving birth in hospital are too expensive and doctors usually gave invasive procedures that are not necessary just to rake in more money.
Personally, I am afraid of doctors. But.....I am more afraid to go through birthing alone without doctors.
My first birthing are totally natural, at Putrajaya hospital, Dr Hamidah. No epidural, no painkillers. Just that I was induced that morning since it is already more than 12 hours since my water broke. Something about bacteria, the health of baby and me. Well, I agreed to anything the moment they said it might impair my baby's health.
So, they induced me, pain started, REAL pain started, they rolled me to the birthing room, gave birth. Dr Hamidah was really good, her touch was very soft. But be careful of doctor pelatih, silap2 kena jahit second time. :)
For my second birthing, I chose Hospital KPMC Puchong, with the gentle and helpful Dr Haslinda. I informed the good doctor that my pain threshold was quite low, so she gave me a bit of a painkiller and an extra dose of reassuring smile. The residing Mak Bidan was also around at the time, so she gave me a bit of extra 'help' too.
Anyway, the pain started, but muted by the painkiller. I do remember sort of dozing a bit, hugging the bed's armrest like bantal peluk, the moment the baby dropped to the birth canal, the birthing itself, etc.
May be because of my age, I had already face the facts that I am not a Superwoman. Also, me being pregnant at this age is already a miracle by Allah and a risk by modern medicine standard; and I won't add more risk to my baby by giving birth without at least a doctor's supervision. Preferably a team of doctors with a legion of nurses and Ayah, my mum around me. :)
Yeah, I know that death is from Allah, and no one can run from it. But at least I want to try to give the best for my baby. And THAT is also what is teached by our prophet, Rasullullah s.a.w.
If you want the gentle birthing solution, hypno babble, new world type of stuffs; sure go ahead. But do know that each time a mother gave birth, she risk her life and the newborn baby's life too. Please don't monkey see, monkey do. You are human, do your own research and make your own decision. Please DO NOT blame others if anything goes wrong.
Different experiences of home birth.
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The race of man shall perish, but the eyes
Of trilobytes eternal in stone,
And seem to stare about in mild surprise
At changes greater than they have yet known.
- T.A. Conrad
To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.
- William Blake,
excerp from Auguries of Innocence.