Monday, October 19, 2009
Still low...and still slow.
Life sucks and who doesn't know this? But life goes on...and on...and on.
Picking myself up slowly and trying to fill my time with many activities (cuma kena kira budget for the activities la....my dream of sky diving kena put on hold lagik...). Susah2, activities aku adalah bermain ngan my jewelry or tido. Even books need to be bought, and with the current constraint, babai la jawabnya.
Byk menda aku nak buat siut, but priorities kena kira gaks...and since last Raya discussions, priorities are changed yet again. But then, dreams need to be catered to...and fulfilled. I will let go when the time comes, but it will be hard....very hard.
Also waiting for some news...some say bad, some say good. Depends, I would say....for me, there is no difference. Might be a bit sad, for what might have been....but then I am good in forgetting. Seems there are a lot of things that I'd already forgot. Surreal sometimes....
And life goes on...
Sometimes, I wonder....what is a man? What constitutes me, as me? My physical body? My soul? My memories? If I take one of these things away, would you recognized me? Would I recognize you?
A lot of questions....and the answer will only come with TIME.
Enough scaring little kids for now, let's go and watch Oggy and the Cockroaches.
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The race of man shall perish, but the eyes
Of trilobytes eternal in stone,
And seem to stare about in mild surprise
At changes greater than they have yet known.
- T.A. Conrad
To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.
- William Blake,
excerp from Auguries of Innocence.